Large forlorn eyes stared back at me;
I wiped it clean –
The fluorescent lamp exposed the ghostly shadows in them;
And the death creeping into the pupils.
You wouldn't find the exuberance of sand castles in its depths
Just dank endless tunnels leading onto an impenetrable darkness
And I was lost in those dungeons.
The call of the ocean from afar –
I heard the sound of laughter and mirth;
The smell of fresh grass and sun-
Scratched and bruised – I had to find my way
Today I would reach the door,
The night held no fears for me.
I gazed back into those eyes
And I heard the scream, piercing the silence of my graveyard
The bright light didn’t blind me
It shot through the eyeballs and tugged at the lifeless organ;
The sudden gush of warmth dazed me
And I found my core
I delved into those layers and reached the nerve
Of those hidden desires, pleasures and bliss
Of unspoken wishes
Of the untainted truth obscured by numerous veils.
I found me –
Blushing over love ballads
Drinking in the intoxication of life.
No, that couldn’t be me!!
I prodded the silvered surface and it touched me back
With so much warmth and life
The murky mischief vexed me
The small curl at the corner of its lips filled me with wrath
Its ignorance burnt my soul in jealousy.
No, it isn’t me –
I couldn’t find the drooping eyelids
The war torn ravaged face of a defeated soul.
And yet there I was – all that I used to be
Or, all that I am, choked up by the sands of time.
That surreal realm is oft called an ill wind
I turned away from the mirror
From everything that I miss and rummage in corners everyday
As they retreat further into oblivion.
I wiped the foggy glass clean, to find those desolate eyes again
Pleading, sighing, giving up yet again
As I prepare to walk into another day.